Mirror Integrity
After recently making a significant mistake by getting lost in a destructive haze, I realize that my self-worth is lacking. How can I discover my own value, protect myself, and avoid causing indirect harm by saying 'yes' to everything?
Dear Luisa,
First of all, thank you for your insightful question, initiating the inauguration of my website.
In response, I think that it lies in human nature to seek meaning beyond ourselves. Therefore, deep inside, we say a resounding 'yes!' to the world. We allow the chaotic state of the world to enter our being, where it transforms our souls with a poetic dance of rebirth.
In this affirmation, a fascination unfolds for a silent attraction to destruction, as if we are seduced by the pleasure of breaking our ‘known-self’. Therefore, it's crucial to occasionally lose oneself because it's the sole path for the orthodox heart to blossom.
But saying 'yes' to the world is not saying 'yes' to everything. Even when we were gods, and we could do that, creation itself would cease to exist. Everything would be perfect and at the same time transform into a death-like silence. Therefore, perfection is by definition infertility, revealing not beauty but an endless sterile nakedness of existence.
So, beauty doesn't rest in perfection but in limitation: in the end, all beauty dies, and all the things we love, we lose. Therefore grief is the testimony to acknowledging our vulnerability and mortality, precisely because we unfold ourselves to love. The point of our limitation is not suffering; its existence itself.
Therefore, choosing 'sometimes saying no' is a limitation and something beautiful, a little death that makes our authentic heart beat.
But what path, in this broken world, can we follow to eliminate our blindness and stupidity, to bring us closer to the light? Perhaps we could deal with the destructive-horrors of the world if we left our own characteristics intact, and developed them to the fullest: if we embrace and actualize every gift we have been granted. The fact that you can do this is a miracle! Slowly but surely, you discover that by recognizing and obeying your own limits - realizing your vulnerability, mortality and fundamental limitations - love for and from the world will enter.
Suddenly you will see that from the cracks of the dark world, beautiful wildflowers bloom. Choose them carefully and pick them with love. Absorb their beauty and let their power serve as a weapon to heal wounds. Saying "no" to destructive forces is a form of self beautification, a process by which you transform yourself.
Beautifying yourself is also beautifying the world. Saying 'yes' to the world is simultaneously saying 'yes' to yourself. It marks the beginning of a silent rebellion against the seemingly senseless chaos around you. Choose consciously, pick with love and be a source of healing for the world.
So, Luisa, it's time to cease procrastinating, gather yourself, break free from this paralysis, and make a choice. Trust in your own intuitive process, and let every nihilistic experience be woven into a clear path. As the scales fall from your eyes, your authenticity rushes into sharp focus. Embrace it.
Love,
Coma